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Now, on to the updates!
Not much to say except wonderful awesome things about my wonderful awesome girlfriend! :DDD
(I suck at recounting things fyi. Soooooo……yeah)
Well! Me and her went on a pretty spiffy date. You seeeeeeee, she had shown up at my work all spontaneous like and we got to hang out, which was great seeing as work is rough and whatnot. I had been wanting to take her out on a date for a while, so I asked her if she wanted to go. Of course, she said yes :) Sooooooo, when I got off work, I took her to Red Lobster. The poor dear acted if I had taken her to like….some super swanky restaurant, which made me happy. I told her to have whatever she’d like and we got to have a nice quiet dinner together along with time to ourselves to talk. That was my favorite part, simply being able to reach across the table, hold her hand, and talk to her. It made me so very happy. When we got the check, I made sure she didn’t see it (gotta play the role right!) and we left.
But wait, there’s more!!
I didn’t want our night to end (who wants a perfect night to end? I mean, come on), so I took her bowling. We went to a pretty neat ally we’ve gone to before and bowled a game, me paying of course :) When we were done with the game we dove into the arcade section of the place and played air hockey.
Now, before I go on, let me describe our air hockey ways. You see…..we place bets on the games. And not just any bets, no, we place sexual bets ;) The best part about these bets is that they ALWAYS end up with us both winning (think about it, if she gets something she wants, I get to do something she wants me to, which makes her happy, which makes me happy!).
Anyway, I lost the bets (totally let her win the games ^.^ gotta go easy on mah girl, ya know?) and we moved on to the other games and racked up soooooooooo many tickets. We saved em, though. Going for the big prizes! That and we keep leaving one single ticket in her car :P
Moving on. The following night was, in the simplest of words, spectacular. I’m one of those people who believes that sex should stay between those having it and not shared with the world, so I’ll keep all the details to myself. I will say, though, that sex with her is amazing. Not only because she’s amazing in bed, but because of how much we love each other. I’ve had sex in my previous relationships, but it never felt like this before. Ever. Not ever. Nope. Nada. With her…..it’s like….overwhelming happiness and joy and love, especially love. It’s a love that flows through your entire body and makes you feel like you’re going to explode if you can’t show them exactly how much you love them. It’s a love that when I look at her during those intimate times, I almost cry out of happiness and adoration and love. It’s an amazing feeling, truly it is.
That was pretty much the night, but I still have things to tell you guys.
Me and her are mommies!! I found a kitten wandering around the new apartment complex with a bag on its head and quickly took it in (being the bleeding heart that I am of course). His name is Uno. I’ve been wanting to be a mama so bad the past couple of days. With him, though, he feels that longing a little bit. He’s our little baby to love and take care of. He’s made us a little family. It’s creating a bond between us that is even stronger than it already is, and that’s pretty crazy. I’m really happy about it, though.
And then our 3 months anniversary rolled around and guess what she did. She came to my apartment to pick me up for our date…..but she had flowers! Not just any flowers, oh no. She had yellow roses with beautiful red tips. And! She had me Jammie Dodgers which I’ve been dying to try. And! She had me another beautiful drawing! After she gave me everything and I put the flowers in some water and made myself look cute, we went out to her car. Guess what. She had $20 worth of quarters so she could get me a ring to replace the one I lost (yes, I’m the loser who lost the ring her girlfriend gave her). We went and had delicious Chinese and ended up spending about $5 on the quarter machine before we got an exact replica (I plan on making the others into a necklace for giggles ^.^). And then she took me to a book store and we walked around and looked at awesome books and she bought a few things. But here’s the best part! She took me to this kinda secluded little park with a HUGE fountain. It was gorgeous, plus the moon and stars were out. We sat together by the water and simply enjoyed each others company. After a bit I read to her since she likes my voice. Then we went home and my bedroom became our palace of pleasure ;D
Oh, and guess what else that’s awesome that this girl is doing? She’s inviting me to come with her to Chicago, which is one of my dream cities!!! It’s for an artist thing she’s wanting to attend. Currently we have to save up the money to make sure we can afford it, but still! I mean…..I’d be spending a week with her in a hotel room in an amazing city. It’d be alone time to the extreme, but in a good way! No matter how much alone time me and her have I’m always craving more. I’m really hoping we can do this, not just for the alone time, but for the even deeper, stronger bond we would form from it. After all, it’s practically a vacation together. If we can stand the stress of sorting it out and everything, I think we can stand anything :P
Onto another topic. One night she had come over to help move things to the new apartment and I didn’t want her to leave even though she had to. When I finally gave up the fight to get her to stay and accepted that she had to leave, I couldn’t help but to start crying. I wasn’t trying to guilt-trip her or anything, it simply hurt me and my soul and heart to know that the person I love with every once of my existance would be separate from me sleeping in a different bed, wouldn’t be there in the morning for me to cuddle up to, wouldn’t be there for me to hold at night. It broke my heart to have to walk her out to her car. I hated it. I wanted so desperately to have her stay. I’ve never longed to keep someone with me the way I did that night. I’ve never even cried over someone leaving like that either, especially since I knew I was going to see her the next day. It’s just that this girl means everything to me and I want to spend every moment I can with her.
To wrap it all up, this girl means soooooo fucking much to me. I wish I could put it into words, I seriously do. She’s my air when I feel I can’t breath, my smile when I just want to cry, my shoulder when I need someone to be there, my laugh when I’m upset, my safety when I’m scared, my warmth when I’m cold, my other half. There have been times when I’ve told girls that they were my other half and all that good stuff, but this time I mean it. It feels different than all the other times before. When I’m with this girl, gosh, I don’t even know how to explain it. Everything feels right. It feels like the universe is perfect, as if I’m floating on air, as if there is no wrong in the world, as if time could stretch on forever, as if troubles could never bother me again. She makes me so happy I have tears in my eyes simply writing this. I was talking to her a few days ago and accidentally let slip the phrase “life partner” without thinking. When I say “accidentally slip” I mean that I didn’t want her to know just yet that that is what I consider her to be (seeing as it’s only been 3 months). I can’t imagine a life without her. Even attempting to makes my heart ache. She has become my everything and I want to spend my life with her and only her. I’ve lost all interest in other women. Sure, I look and compliment, but I don’t flirt anymore or have those little daydreams we all have. No, everything is all about her now. My world now revolves around her. These three months have been the most amazing of my entire life and I look forward to the rest of my life with her.
I love you so very much Sonova Rose. More than you will ever know.
Weeeeeeelllllll, so yeah, sorry about the book-like post you Tumblrites, but I had a lot to say and catch you guys up on!